There's nothing else. Mom. Dad. You've done it already. You've explored Earth, founded new countries, built cities, fought wars, won freedom, laid down social equality, protested to speak your mind, and now you're handing us the keys to the car.
What the hell do you want me to do?
Wash it?
Maintain it?
Gee, sounds like fun.
Know what?
I don't care for the structure and rules you've designed. They aren't mine. They aren't me. I don't care for them whatsoever. I don't care. I'll grow up to be a junky. Give me apathy.
Give me a hit of that, a tab of this. I need a pill.
I take a pill.
- Excerpt from If Kisses Were Bullets...

What The Book Is About

There’s no good way to explain what this book is about.  The main character struggles against the aimless supervision of parents, adults, authority, expectations and the future.  In his youth he drink, parties, dabble with drugs but as he grows up and looks back he begins to see a pattern to his life. If only he could under stand these cycles he might begin to understand everything. He’s what some might label generation y, a twixer or a child of the baby boomer generation.  Beyond his struggles are his achievements, romance and death.  This isn’t a murder mystery but it has one.  It’s not a romance but there is some.  It’s not a coming of age story but everyone grows up.  The intro explains it best.

Excerpt from the introduction:

These things happen and happened.  Don’t get disheartened.  You are about to get very confused-as much as the main character does.  There may be places in the story where you don’t know what is going on.  This book was purposely written with pace, word choice, layout and design in mind.  The best suggestion is to continue forward.  You can always read it again and, in fact, you’ll have to.
There are two ways to read this book.  The first is to read part one (the text on the left side of the book, denoted by font) then go back to the beginning and read part two (the text on the right side of the book).
This would be the linear way to proceed.
The second way is to read part one and part two simultaneously as if reading two stories at once.  Moving forward thusly will provide you more insight into the events as they play out.  This would be the philosophical/analytical way to proceed.
Re-reading the book may reveal something new.  Feel free to go back and try again.  It’s up to you.

If Kisses Were Bullets... weaves through the history of the main character. We watch from his perspective as love and life cut him short. Everyone the narrator sleeps with tells him they love him and then eventually leaves him for another man. One day his ex-girlfriends begin showing up dead and he becomes the most logical suspect. Somewhere amongst his life, love, past and present there is a secret to everyone's questions. Is there something in his past that could have created a brutal serial killer? Was he in the wrong place in the wrong time? Or are his paranoid delusions real? Is he being set up?

H.X. Sin takes the great old American novel and coming of age story that we had to read in class and brings it to a place that could get it banned from schools.

How The Book Came To Exist

If Kisses Were Bullets... is the culmination of efforts by H.X Sin the owners of Middle Muse. While the novel itself took several years to write getting it published took as long. It was Middle Muse who came to the rescue with the idea of supporting quality writers who had created books that would be hard to get published by big publishers due to difficult marketability. So Middle Mused created a division with that idea in mind using If Kisses Were Bullets... as their flagship novel.

The rough road is still not over as both H.X. and Middle Muse discovered that they would be playing and competing in the big publishers world. Things like editing, layout and cover design that larger companies could do in days became month long process with the minimal Middle Muse staff. They also learned that getting reviews to read the book, newspapers to notice it or book stores to put it on their shelves is a challenge with so many people producing books and battling to get the best coverage. Even still Middle Muse and H.X. remain hopeful knowing that If Kisses Were Bullets.. and the ideas behind it can carry them through. All they need is a little help from their friends and hopefully their fans.

H.X has several paintings and a CD that he created for the book

With three more novels outlined H.X. hopes that each story will rival the next.